A Different Christmas

For all I know, Christmas is a season for love, peace, hope, thanksgiving & reconciliation. All anger are discarded. Impatience are set aside. Pride are buried. And joy is planted in the hearts.

I'm spending a different Christmas from the ones I had. Because of crisis, people around me, my parents, my loved ones, are having problems. Hope is shadowed with fear. My parents lately kept on quarreling which they never do or show us when I and my sister are around. They usually talk it over but mom seemed so impatient for talks. MOO, my special someone, is being too impatient too and more demanding. I believe it's not the right time to so much demanding. He emotes a lot. Make me the cause for his bad days when he could actually help me do something to save it. I am always afraid to fail him. Like what i said, he's impatient. I have hard times gaining his moods back so i really try not to stumble on one. But I'm just a human person and so it's pretty unavoidable. I accept it. I know things happen for a reason.

It's hard to make mom smile no matter how hard I, my sister, and my tito try. She's so stressed and stress is proven to be highly contagious. She forgets how to listen. She blabs and blabs like everyone is paying attention to her. I close my ears and I am aware of what she means but blabbing really doesn't help. Feelings got to be controlled once and for all. :(( I would like to give mom a gift this Christmas that will tell her even though she's like that eh matitiis ko xah and I love her so much. As for MOO, since he's next to the closest people in my family that I'm afraid to fail, I just want him to understand me more like what you could expect from the people most dear to you.

I stay at home this holidays. Poverty strikes. Chances are gifted to the less fortunate. I'll just continue to give love...even if its not Christmas. Never easy but no regrets are guaranteed. :)