I Love You, Goodbye? :c

I know I've been hurt many times. I know I have to get over pain each time it visits me. And never close my eyes...lose hope...but this time's different. I got so hurt I can't find my way to get up.

Each time I try is like there's something sharp in me that penetrates and hurts me more. That's right, each time I try.

What am I to do? How would this pain go away when each time I try hurts me more? I never wanted it to be like this. I never thought aabot sa ganito.

It's really killing me.

Thinking of letting go really hurts but thinking of moving on and keep things the way they used to be hurts more 'cause we know...deep inside...we know it's all too late...they're not going to be the way they used to be.

...that I will never forget this pain.

It's that hard. And I never thought I could say this.

I know I'm brave.

But sometimes being brave doesn't always mean

"BE STRONG AND NEVER GIVE UP."

Sometimes it means the opposite of what we always thought it meant.

"BE STRONG, GIVE IT UP AND MOVE ON."

What will I do now?